Moved To Tears

First period of my 3rd last day in Japan and I've already cried. We were really busy this past week and a half preparing for today's worship and when we finally performed it today, Ai and Saki (with Maiko and Airi doing Japanese translations) basically recapped my whole stay in Japan. なつかしいね。。。　Ai started from September and said how it was difficult for me coming during the middle of mid-terms and the school festival but I did well. Then she moved onto October, and during the school trip we had fun staying up late talking and getting "scolded" by the teachers. Then in December, I made those little cookies for everyone. I was moved, but not to tears yet at that point. Then during the prayer, Saki prayed for the people affected by the tsunami and my safe return home. She also thanked God for our friendship. That got the eyes a little watery and by the time Airi had to do the Japanese translation she her voice was unsteady from holding back tears. After all the other classes left, Aki called Ai and Airi over and was like "look, you're all crying now" and that really got the tears rolling when I saw them all teary. We took some pictures together as a class after that (unfortunately, I don't think some people that I wanted in the picture were there... namely Yanaga-san) Well hopefully I can take a ton more pictures with small groups of people before I go. Its too bad that they have school and a test on the day I'm leaving.

On a side note... I had a kind of interesting moment/conversation with Aki yesterday afterschool during practice, which continued this morning during our final practice. Yesterday I was tired from a long day at school and while resting my head on Aki's shoulder I was looking at at our "conductor" (Nonaka-san who got the position of conductor because we don't have any music club students in our class and the closest we could get was a drama club person) I was like to her (just out of the blue) "ne... am I'm crazy for thinking our conductor is cute?" Well, good thing (and bad at the same time) she didn't really understand what I said and then she was like "who? Kaneda-sensei? EH!?!" Well, Kaneda-sensei isn't "cute" but I think he looks okay. Either way, I spent practically the rest of the practice telling her to pretend I didn't say anything and that NO, I wasn't refering to Kaneda-sensei(who is our Bible teacher/worship leader btw). Well, by the end of practice and before I went home, I finally told her what I said and she was like "No, its not weird or embarassing. I think she's cute too." Well, that kind of made me feel a little better. It didn't feel as wrong anymore.

This morning, I said to Aki how I feel stupid for what I said yesterday about Nonaka-san. But then she was like "You shouldn't feel stupid, everyone thinks she's pretty" That kind of dissolved the rest of the "stupid" feeling I had. Now if only I could stop being envious of how everyone is able to talk to her so easily. Meh, I'm most likely just not trying hard enough. On another side note, the day before, the choir teacher was helping us with our singing and she made Nonaka-san read the lyrics of one of the songs "passionately" and "with feeling" to show us how we should be singing the song. She sounded really, REALLY cool. No wonder she's in the drama club. Luckly I wasn't the only one who thought so, because Ai-chan was also said it was really nice(すばらしい　was her exact words). I think she would make a really good voice actress... you know, the kind who play young boys like Ryoma. ^.^;; I wish I got a recording of her when she was reading the lyrics... I think you guys would agree.

Okay, I think that's enough about Nonaka-san to last for a lifetime. Problem with me is I get obsessive about things... like Gachapon machines. -_- Those things are robbing me blind. Anyways, have to slap together the beginnings of my leaving speech before 3rd period. Ja.